the truth about my health ❤️‍🩹

it was hard for me to find the right words for this video. I have so many conflicting emotions about it. Frustration that all the "healthy things" I've done over the last year have lead me here. Fear about what this challenge holds in store for me. Hope that being brave enough to face my HA (hypothalamic amenorrhea now will mean I can truly become the healthiest version of myself in the long term. I want to be a mom. I want to have healthy bones. I want my cycle back. For those things I am willing to sacrifice. Thankfully, this is just a phase! Just like any training block or challenge there is an end to this. And when this challenge comes to an end we will have another challenge and focus. But for now I'm ready (or trying to be) to sit in the discomfort that comes with recovery. It's going to be worth it 🤍